Creepy Card Lady, Human Penguins & Stimulants

.1. I finally got all of my Holiday cards out, and this year >> I had enough time to write special and unique notes in each and every one. I’ve been working on them for quite some time, so it was a great feeling to dump the last of them in the mail.

.2. Forgot to mention this. While in NYC, T, E & I were walking down the street discussing fortunes, futures and what-have-you. Then, suddenly, we found ourselves standing in front of a Tarot Card Reader’s shop and so – as fate had placed her before us – we had her read our cards.

I was the first in and this is what she said to me, The Creepy Card Lady With The Black Eyes And No Pupils:
- I was a leader.
- People are drawn to me.
- I will have a very long life.
- Am chaste (she used the ‘V’ word).
- I have been traveling too much & running away from something. What I need is to calm down and stop running. Instead, I must stay in one place long enough to work on my self and face whatever it is I am running from.
- I must let go of a man whom I have loved for the last three years.
- I will be with a man before November (she didn’t specify a year, and it’s obviously not November of 2005).
- I am not allowed to pursue him. Rather, he is the sort of man who has to come after me (otherwise, he will not appreciate yours truly). She kept repeating: “Let him come after you. This is very important!”
- Our relationship was going to be strong, intense and passionate from the get-go. This also means we will hit some rough patches at the beginning, but we will make it through them because we won't be able to walk away from one another no matter how angry either of us may be.
- He will be older than me.
- He will be rich.
- With this man in my life, she saw much travel and a lot of palm trees.
- I will be married within two years’ time.

I wish I could tell you that this is nonsense, but she nailed a few things on the head
(hence why we called her ‘Creepy’)…and not just with me, but also with T & especially with E. It really was: The Creepy Card Lady With The Black Eyes And No Pupils.

And she was pregnant, and I’ve always believed that pregnancy brings on special powers (not the kind that come with a cape and really neat boots).

.3. Was watching people at the bus stop today and thought how like March of the Humans it all appeared. Odd, really. First bus arrived, was filled rather quickly and left approx half of the line behind.

All in line donned dark coloured jackets & even darker knit caps, but wore light coloured scarves. After the first bus left, they slowly shuffled forward, in one single polite line, and waited for the second bus to arrive. No one turned to speak to an other, no one smiled, no one listened to music; they all just stared straight ahead, waiting for the bus to arrive and whisk them off to their…life, I guess.

Although no such thing happened, I half expected a penguin to walk out and greet them. Maybe hand them a cola, or something.

.4. Recall above mentioned “single polite line”.

Right. Well, when the second bus arrived, it pulled up not as it should have, at the beginning of the line, but rather, somewhere in the middle of the line.

Polite no more! The people started shoving and hollering at one another. Elbows were flying, toques were being ripped off, gloves thrown in the air. Several eye-glasses were crushed as bus riders prepared to roll whoever cut in front of them.

All of this may not sound so odd to you, but the reality is that it was all very strange to watch: After all, there were only four people in line.

.5. I have cut all stimulants from my life because – as D has said – I am already over-stimulated enough.

No more caffeine of any sort (e.g. coffee, tea and chocolate). This is quite difficult because am a bona fide coffeeholic. I once drank at least 5 or 6 (ok. Perhaps more & this was only last week…) cups a day, but last Tuesday, I decided to cut this out cold turkey.

So far, so good.

My heart isn’t racing as much, and I am quite a bit more calm than before. Although my energy level remains the same, it is a different sort of energy (meaning: I can catch my breath regularly).

.6. I must buy another Jeanette Winterson book, and soon. I finished Oranges Are Not The Only Fruit a couple of weeks ago and am already having withdrawal from her stories.