Solace

Walking down the hall just moments ago a colleague who passed me said: Maha! I have to tell you, it’s so nice to see you smiling!

Suddenly, it hit me. I knew it, and I acknowledged it, I just didn’t think others had. The only way to describe it would be to write that: I have been a shadow of my true self for the past month (and for the two months prior to that, but not quite as painful or as obvious). And I don’t like that. I didn’t know I possessed the capacity to be such a person, but…we all learn and we all change and we all morph as the days and the years pass.

Only recently have I started feeling like I am stepping away from that shadow and back in to me. I guess that too is starting to show.

And as I type this out, know that I’m smiling, and that writing has been a source of much solace for me…