Anonymous lily said…

Holy fuck Maha. You dissappear for so long and then come back with something I don’t think I’ve ever read you write anything like this before. It’s fucking brilliant. It’s just brilliant – I don’t even really know what else to say except that I’ve already read it 3 times. Wow. Fucking brillian,t. -lily
Fri Nov 07, 09:05:00 PM
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Anonymous Anonymous said…

maha i love this entry. i will call you tonight.
x
Fri Nov 07, 10:23:00 PM
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Anonymous Maria Calvo said…

Maha – I love this entry but I don’t even know what to say. It’s so intense and I am happy that your story’s been put to rest.

WE MISS YOU MAHA!! When are you going to start blogging regularly again??

WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!
Maria
Sun Nov 09, 11:26:00 AM
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Anonymous Anonymous said…

Truly a lovely piece. You were linked to within a book club. Thank you.
Sun Nov 09, 06:29:00 PM
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Anonymous Anonymous said…

Maha.. Some stories so indeed shred you as they come out. One wonders if it is best to hold on to it inside and let it eat at you bit by bit as you absorb the pain, hoping that when it is done, there will be part of you left alive Or if it is better to brace yourself for a climax of pain and let it out, hoping that after it shreds everything in its path, some part of you remains intact. If you found a way of telling your story and it allowed you to do so without destroying you, you are a most fortunate gal..
Sun Nov 09, 09:21:00 PM
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Blogger just a girl said…

Lily- thank you

Maria- soon, I think. I feel a tidal wave, but won’t rush it. In time…in time…
& I love you too…

Anon 6.29pm- thank you.

Anon 9.21pm- A handful of my closest and dearest and most precious friends were the ones who allowed my story to soften…it was only in telling it to them that the pain was purged. And I had a BB who just carried me through it in a way I will never forget – and as much as I wish to return her the favour, I would NEVER wish that sort of pain on her. Absolutely never.
Anyway. Time took care of the rest.
…and telling the story destroyed me with every telling. But I don’t believe in holding back or holding anything in. Life’s just too damn short for that.

xxxx
Sun Nov 09, 10:17:00 PM
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Anonymous Anonymous said…

Maha

Telling one’s story takes a lot of courage .. It takes courage to gamble on the fact that the pain of birthing the story is less than the pain of holding it in. It is sometimes easier to hold someone as they cry then to cry yourself.

Somehow listening to you in many cases got my mind off of my own “stories”. You have already helped. I also know that not only do I have a warm hug whenever I need it, I can also count on sunshine sparkles where necessary

BB
Mon Nov 10, 12:29:00 AM
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Anonymous Thomas said…

What a unique way to tell a story without having to tell it!!

Handsomely written, Maha. It is good to see you back and blogging, if in increments only.

Thomas
Mon Nov 10, 08:27:00 AM